I Don’t Know

Do you ever let your fears, doubts, anxiety and depression just rape your life and the progress you’ve been working countless hours, months, even years? I have. But that’s the thing about this illness huh? One day You’re feeling great and able to push yourself towards showing your loved ones more emotion and you give them that unexpected hug they’ve longed for. But you were just so depressed and didn’t want to bother them with your leaning on them or burdening them. Or when you make your significant other feel terrible because you’ve lived in only toxicity your whole life and have had traumatizing relationships. I’m guilty of this too.. Anxiety and depression are dementors that will suck every joyful thing in your life. And well after the fact, you feel the effects of being emotionally drained. I don’t know what to get out of this, but maybe someone will see this and say hey.. I’m not alone. And losing battles here and there isn’t the end of the world. Just gotta win the war